Reality Check

So I am now @ 361.8 folks that is a total of 29 lbs released, gone, poof! That is also 1.8 lbs shy of my short term goal weight of 360 ... I am setting myself small goals to meet so I feel accomplished along the weigh way and not so overwhelmed by that HUGE number... When I started I had over 225 lbs to shed... 225 pounds Good Grief I ask myself how did I get here, honestly? The answer is I do not know ~ my best bet would be a sedentary life style, I web design, graphic design ... and have become more active over the last couple years with farming and outdoor extracurriculars ... but still I have no excuse aside... I was never content with myself, however I never had anything that would just move me along 1 pound at a time like this stuff. I want to also add that with out GOD, I could NOT do this - I remind myself daily when needed, I can do this with Christ I can do anything and everything - including THIS. I now have 196.8 lbs to lose for my long term goal... a smaller number but still Huge...

So reality set in about a week ago... temptations yeah they finally came around to visit me... especially last night... I made homemade Belgian Waffles along with maple syrup, real butter, Strawberries and Rediwhip (that yummy whipped cream in a can) oh my stars my home smelled so delicious... and the smiles and oh mom this is so good coming from the kids and my hubby told me enough - my husband tells me it's okay hon... have 1 bite and somehow (this is where GOD kicks in) I have the strength to say no... I have come too far!!! My womens group was also last night... and they always send me home with whatever goody was brought up there to share... for the kids ;o) last night Linda brought a butter cream iced 1/4 sheet cake, a marble bundt cake, and two packages of oatmeal raisin cookies - GOOD HEAVENS where were these on my loading days??? I set them all on my stove top - they all looked delish... I sent the bundt cake off with Joseph this morning for work ~ he drinks coffee like it's going out of style - so that will be a nice side kick companion.

But here is the big news - I not ONCE during this diet have cheated with a crumb of anything I am not supposed to have... I have stalled a few times (meaning not lose any weight) and I even gained a few ounces as well on a few occasions - these times did leave me down casted - because unless I am sleep walking/eating... I have not eaten anything that is not listed under protocol, and if anything I am falling short of my 500 daily calories. However I pray, and thank God for the weight I have lost and ask to keep focused on what I have accomplished so far and keep moving along. I am just not sure where the small weight gain comes from time to time?

I have contemplated @ stopping @ the 21 day marker instead of the 42... because I do feel myself wanting some of things I can't have... not just junk food but a loaded salad with sunflower seeds, boiled eggs, cheese, ranch, etc, soups, sandwiches and so much more... doesn't help that I am making a ten layer lasagna for dinner tonight - SIGH ~ BUT I am also driven on to see how much weight can I lose as well ~ I also would LOVE to be able to do wii fit - I can't I am too heavy @ this point... 330 I believe is the max weight, and thank GOD my wii fit scale can't talk to me, I could hear it now, "Seriously Lady?" If my bathroom scale can go to 450.. why can't wii make one to accept more poundage? Us big people want to use it too! So with that said... 330 will be my next goal once I meet 360... -

One last thing ~ I have this little giddiness I get every time I see a number change I am not talking like 1 number I mean like 390 to 387, to 375, to 360's it's amazing to get out of a range ... of numbers like I am so thrilled to getting closer to the 350's =D ~ it's sooo close... I also don't see too much of a physical change myself... not sure why, but my family comments on it... I really need to spend time getting the rest of this blog lined out so I can share my actually body shots ::eek::

coming soon, Pics of me! ;o) (Head to toe)

Can we just get down to business here...

Well Phooey ~ and pooie - first of all this entry may not be for everyone I will try not to be so graphic but then again I want to be graphic enough for those who are going through the same thing, or thinking about it - so there will be some poo talk in this posting. Feel free to click that little X up there in the corner if this is going to be bothersome.

Weighed in today and some how I gained 2.2 lbs... whimper ~ So of course I'm not ecstatic but I am not horribly distraught or discouraged... let me bring you up to date since I haven't blogged in a few days.

SATURDAY WEIGH IN ~ 374.2

Saturday My husband and I attended a P.R.I.D.E. class in Austin ~ that's about 3 hours from us... this training included a pot luck lunch, and pizza for dinner, I was GOOD!!! I brought my little cooler, lunch I had a 3 oz piece of steak, cucumbers, and an orange, dinner I had a boiled egg, an apple, and some mixed greens but just a pinch of those I felt funny nibbling on pieces of lettuce in front of everyone while the devoured their gooey cheesy meat covered pizza :P I also drank... 3 liters of water!!! Joseph had to stop 4 times on the way to Austin for me to well... you know :D Sometime that evening @ the event I swear I was doing a remake of aliens there was about 30 minutes left of the training and I thought I was going into labor and that some alien life form was about to rip me a new one, I some how manage to hold on for dear life with no one noticing my death grip fist clenching every time I had a cramp.. why didn't I go? because brilliant me likes to sit in front everywhere, and the way they had these tables set up ~ there was no room to move between other chairs once occupied. Boo! I finally made it to the bathroom and I'm just saying, It wasn't nice but praise God that I made it in time... what came out was probably compared to Wasabi sauce and lava ... I dunno, maybe I'm pooing out my fat? If so I should take stock in toilet paper :D because the clean up lady is gonna need to restock that stall.

SUNDAY WEIGH IN ~ 367.4

Ha that's no shocker, I am pretty sure I flushed those 6 pounds back in Austin. Anyhow I failed to drink much water in the morning... because we had Sunday school & Church and I didn't want to have to pee every 30 minutes... so lunch was forced on myself - meaning I have no DESIRE to eat whatsoever ... I had a boiled egg for lunch, an orange no veggies..., then dinner I had 2 deli slices of Roast Beef and 2 or 3 slices of cucumbers and my apple... again this meal was literally forced. I may have drank 50 ounces of water... but not my goal :/ ~ ooohh and no poo @ all (probably none left from the night before)

MONDAY WEIGH IN 369.6

Ut-oh this is where you see me do the on and off the scale dance... for a good 5 minutes, why in the world did I gain weight? I am pretty sure that was a 5 lb plus alien I gave birth to rectally Saturday eve, and I haven't had ANYTHING to eat really to speak of, but wait I have not pooed either... which makes me wonder if there is an apocalypse brewing in my colon... whatever it is I hope it doesn't have the same acid burning effects it did Saturday night - I do know that these foods are supposed to have chemical compounds that support eachother in the weight loss, and if I'm farting around trying to decide if I am going to eat or not cause I'm not hungry this could very well be an issue - I dunno hands up in there on this one! Any Input would be appreciated on to why I may have gained a little bit?

Here's looking to tomorrow and hoping that scale is gonna behave for me :D and show a 1 pound or 2 gone!

Mondays meal has been thus far...

Lunch -

boiled egg (1)

orange

cucumbers

Dinner will be

3.5 chicken boneless skinless chicken breast

Apple

and either celery or cucumbers

it sucks I am a very picky eater... and only like certain things when they are dipped in ranch , peanut butter or cheese ...

I can't do seafood, I do very little veggies, I am good on the fruit!

Okie I am out, have a wonderful evening!!!

Booo!